i was just reading today's my utmost and it is about abandon to God.  Oswald says, "abandon to God is of more value than personal holiness."   I think that is wonderful.  beautiful even.  there are always these times when we are running around thinking we are so intellectual in the way we have the world figured out.  i feel that as we grow older this is less and less involved with community with our friends and Jesus himself and more and more involved in finding a way to domesticate Christ so that he matches nicely with the rest of our newly found adultness so that we can tuck it all up on a shelf and admire it but not really have to deal with it.  and then good ol' Oswald comes along and says that it has nothing to do with personal holiness.