so here i sit.... a bottle down and i am dying to see you all right now. it is almost one in the morning. and i just want to say... after all the drama and different opinions, it all comes down to one simple fact, we all have such a beautiful and wonderful love for eachother and that, and nothing more, is what really matters. so now i raise a toast, to my family and friends, who are both the same... there is no other more beautiful thing in this universe that God himself has created that i deserve less than the love of you all. and for that i am eternallly grateful. sleep well all because tomorrow is another new day to face the challenge of searching out beauty in the midst of all of this ugliness.