things i am thinking about right this second...

i hate when people say 'vegas baby'

everyone is married, married, married, married, wedding wedding wedding, shower wedding married wedding wedding mature happy people wedding married shower booo. pooh on married! = i am scared of the thought that i haven't found someone i want to marry yet and that makes me feel like a shallow pool of turd.

i love the word 'cocaine' especially in bob dylan songs.

my dog smells good. i love her. i would date her if she were a human.

my coffee tastes weird. i don't think running vinegar through the maker did shit.

i had a crazy dream last night and i am so afraid i am going to forget it.

i have always wanted to be one of those people who do music lists and talk about all time top this and that and can instantly list off good songs or classic bands and all that but it just makes me so stressed and anxious that i can never wrap my mind around it.

i used to listen to the most depressing music.

i worry about the food i eat and if it is good for me more than i think i allow myself to realize. i think the reason for this might be that if i realize how much i worry about getting all the nutrients i need i would worry that my worrying is bad for my heart and stomach and might make me lose my hair. then i would try to counter act that by trying to find some food or something that gives you healthy hair and is good for your heart or makes you more peaceful.

i am wasting my day.

ps. i just found a word in the dictionary that i had no idea existed,
marriageable - adj. suitable to become married. hmmmm. thanks webster you asshole.