how did i become such a forgetter?
i mean i can barely remember when i was young.
i saw this picture of myself just now...
with an arm around my best friend.
i remember being a little less numb.
i think my smile looked more sincere,
but i could be wrong.
i was thinner but i don't remember trying.
i used to be so touched by a song
and i seriously almost remember crying.
this one time....
there was this girl
and i swear i've never smelled anything like her ever since.
she was fearless,
and had such a loud laugh
that now i would think was annoying.
SHE kissed ME
and not the other way around.
it was in my best friend's room.
eyes locked tight in lids,
feet locked in shoes.
i was like a toy whose hands couldn't move
...thank god for that.
'her breath smelled like the... air, in... heaven!'
i told myself...
i thought that sounded cool.
we kissed in the daytime
and then i walked home
i don't think i cared if it was night
or whether or not we were alone
but now, for the life of me,
i can't remember
how you do that without darkness and booze
and hands that can move
i think i would have tried
to remember better
if i would've known
i'd turn out such a forgetter