pointless

most mornings if i can even think when i first wake up, i lay there and plan out parts of my day.  i don't make normal plans about my day, they are all sort of little resolutions.  today when i lay in bed i decided i was going to drink less coffee.  so i planned to bring some tea with me when i went to get coffee and i was only going to get a small coffee.  then i was going to get a hot water refill for my tea.  don't worry, i was going to have them clean out the cup first.  that way i could wean myself off of the joseph.  mind you, these thoughts, at this time in the morning and that state of consciousness, are ingenious and life changing.  when i got my coffee this morning i ordered a large.  needless to say i was very disapointed in myself.  not only did i break my morning resolution, i spent 30 cents more than i should have and even more, i never get large coffee's!!!  i always get mediums!! i honestly don't know what i was thinking with that one.  that one even surprised me.  i know what you are thinking right now, omg.  and now, while drinking my coffee, i've wasted 20 mintutes trying to think of something more interesting to write about than this stupid story.  as soon as i get too frustrated with myself to write any more of this dumb blog i'll move on to trying to get some homework done and after about five mintutes i'll daze off trying to imagine that somewhere in the world right now there is a field nestled in surrounding, snow-capped mountains and no one is there.  probably some place like nick and laura's back yard.  the air is clean and cool and wild flowers are errupting everywhere.  the only noise is the slight wind flowing through the trees.  every once in a while a hawk will fly over head or a deer will graze by and no one is there.  right this momoent dammit!  where is everyone?  crowded into fucking starbucks fighting over the handicapped table.   soon i'll be at work kissing rich people's beautiful asses and trying to convince myself that my job is better and different than subway.  after work i'll be super tired and know that i should do something worth while like study, exercise or read, but i'll probably drink a beer and fall asleep without brushing my teeth.  i'll dream that there are bugs in my bed and miraculously find a way to be stressed out even when i am sleeping.  but hey, you never know what tomorrow brings, i may just order that small coffee after all.  

oh ya, and what am i studying for school right now?  for debate class i am arguing the benefits of euthanasia.  hi ho.