where are my real friends???!!!!

i mis you big bears so much. i want to post again. i want to be with you guys again. i want to work harder on keeping up the relationships that are real and true. i love you guys so much. you are real people, you are kind people, you value love more than being cool, i miss that so much. i am sorry for being so distant, i am sorry if i have let anything change me that should not have changed me, i am sorry for hurting anyone who has only loved me, i am selfish most of the time to the point of blinding. where are the people that i love? what happened to people that love nature and simplicity. what happened to people not being afraid of brokeness and learning from pain. what happened to people that aren't afraid to have ridiculous dreams. what happened to people who don't expect to be entertained every second. what happened to people who can think with an open mind and a positive spirit. what happened to people who aren't afraid to look eachother in the eyes and pray together and hug eachother. you are all back home and i miss you. i want to spend real time with you.